you said move on, where do i go?


Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave it broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together. I know I let you down Again and again I know I never really treated you right, I've paid the price I'm still paying for it every day... so IM SORRY, SERIOUSLY.. I AM. ill do anything to take the things i said to hurt you back, anything. THIS IS THE ONLY TIME/SPACE/PLACE IM GOING TO THINK ABOUT HIM... NO WHERE ELSE..please no where else.

think before you hit the snooze button

"there are a million ways to bleed out but you're my favourite" everyone says it's a change for the better,but i say boy, you changed my forever. relationships, they can be as strange as the weather. rain or sun we'll sing this one together..


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title: hey yo, gotta let this go.
date: Wednesday, May 5, 2010
time:9:29 PM
It was real, it was right
But it burned too hot to survive
All that's left is All these ashes ..

maybe part of loving is learning to let go.
this is it
let go

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title: ocean
date: Monday, May 3, 2010
time:7:30 PM
Where does the love go I don't know 
When it's all said and done How could I be losing you forever? 
After all the time we spent together? I had to know why, 
I Had to lose you Now you'll just become Like everything I'll never find, 
again At the bottom of the ocean 

You don't have to love me for me, 
Just know I love the time that we both had 
And I don't ever wanna see you sad 
Be happy I don't wanna hold you if you don't wanna tell me you love me  
Just know I'm gonna have to walk away I'll be big enough for both of us to say
 Be happy 

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title: put it behind
date: Monday, February 15, 2010
time:10:53 AM
it seems like you just don't know,
the radio's on you tuning me out,
i'm trying to speak, you're turning me down.

i guess this it.
i should have started running a long time ago,
and i never thought i'd doubt you.. i see now
i can be better off without you.
i'm slowly getting closure, it's really gonna be over.
i'm finally getting better, and now i'm picking up the pieces.
i'll spend all these years putting my heart back together.
'cause these are the days i thought i'd never get through,
getting over you.

when you slammed the front door at my face,
a lot of others opened up.

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title: heyhey
date: Friday, February 12, 2010
time:11:18 PM
give me something to believe in,
cause i don't believe in you anymore,
i wonder if it even makes a difference to try

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title: so cold
date: Monday, February 8, 2010
time:10:51 PM
I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons  
Finally content with a past I regret  I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness  
For once I'm at peace with myself  I've been burdened with blame, 
trapped in the past for too long  
I'm moving on 
I had it all, but I let it slip away  
Couldn't see I treated you wrong  
Now I wander around, feeling down and cold  
Still trying to believe that you're gone.. i hate this   
I know it takes f*cking time to heal when you're hurting so much  
Couldn't see that I was blind  To let you go  .. some days i still feel so cold.

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title: sooner or later.
date: Sunday, February 7, 2010
time:8:52 PM
it was awesome but we lost it
it's not possible for me not to care

cause God yanked the rug
and holding you're heart won't let you breathe.

it's over, leave it

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title: pink
date: Sunday, January 31, 2010
time:12:59 AM
i took your words and i believed
in everything you said to me

if someone said three years from now,
you'd be long gone
i'd stand up and punch them out
cause they're all wrong
i know better cause you said forever, and ever
who knew...

i wish i could still call you a friend,
i'd give anything

if someone said count your blessings now for they're
all gone, i guess i just didn't know how i was all wrong
they knew better
still, you said forever, and ever
who knew..

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title: blame
date: Saturday, January 30, 2010
time:1:36 PM
tell me with so many out there
i always turn to you
your goodbyes tear me down every time
and it's so easy that the blame is on me

“whenever you feel like giving up, think of the reasons why you held on”

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title: pray for forgiveness
date: Thursday, January 21, 2010
time:4:36 PM
I swear that everyday I feel like my mind is haunting me
I think of every little stupid mistake that has been made
This time I don't have the strength to gather myself
I'm falling to pieces....
So I pray for forgiveness
look for the answer
cause its hard for me to pretend
look to my mother
call to the captain
cant you see
this state that I'm in
pray for forgiveness
looking for justice
searching for answers
call to my mother
pray for forgiveness
breaking the silence..
"By now I should know 
That in time things must change 
So it shouldn't be so bad 
So why do I feel so sad 
 How can I adjust To the way that things are going 
It's killing me slowly  
I just want it to be how it used to be  
Cause I wish that I could stay 
But in time things must change 
So it shouldn't be so bad,  So why do I feel so sad"

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title: when gone is the glory
date: Sunday, January 17, 2010
time:9:42 PM
i miss talking to you.
i really just want to be your friend, so why can't you let me?
i don't want you to not be a part of my life.
i'm not looking for you to take me back cause i
don't want that,
i seriously just want to talk to you normally
and be happy again.
don't you see, im sorry. im sorry, i know
im not the only one hurting..

when gone is the glory
when gone is the fame
when gone is the name
and you're left with yourself

i look in the mirror
to search your face
to remember who you are
who you ever were

when gone is the glory
when gone is the shine
is gone the whole
of your future and pride?

i look all around in search for a friend
that no longer stands
'till the bitter end

when gone is the glory
when gone is the sun
when gone is the game
then what have you won?

Heartache and pain
of what could have been
only you know the truth
of what is written

when gone is the praise
when gone is the fun
is gone the worth
of what you've become?

when i am alone
at the end of this story
how does it feel
when gone is the glory?


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